Promises to Myself

For a while now I have been struggling with engagement at work and in my life. I see the stairs and run into a solid wall. The pandemic has been a great opportunity to slow down, sit down and take an accounting. For a long time, I lived my life, especially my work life, in go-go-go mode. It's our busiest time of the year and I don't have an adult services librarian or a children's librarian, I'm also short shelvers and my teen librarian is brand new? No problem, I can take this challenge on--weekly programming and going in on Sunday morning to drink my coffee and shelve books--FUN TIMES. The next summer rolls around and I don't have a children's librarian or a teen librarian and still not enough shelvers? No worries--I can do this! The next summer rolls around and I don't have an adult services librarian or a teen librarian and let's face it there never has been and likely never never will be enough staff even when we are fully staffed. Let's go!! Then the pandemic happened and one by one my staff were repurposed to meet the emergent needs of the pandemic--contact tracers, vaccine point of distribution (POD) staff, homeless hotel staff, consumer affairs call center staff, and I said I could handle the demands again and again. The urgency of the pandemic settled into normal life. What was left of my staff returned and I was able to sit down. I saw that I was in rag-tag tatters and the cost of trying to keep the plates spinning without enough resources came with a very steep price tag.

Now, I am ready to pay the price to get my life back where I want it to be. Life is too short and I have too many things that I want to do and experience. I need to put my life in balance and create a plan to get me there. I want Sapphire Lucy Designs to be the vehicle to get me back where I want to be.

A few days ago, I jotted down some Wants & Promises that I will share now. This is the jumping off point for the personal plan that I will be crafting as a blue print forward.

• I want a new job--I promise I will work on personal self-development and provide myself with the skill sets I need for the next level

• I want to be healthy--I promise I will work on making wiser choices

• I want to have a living space that is not clutters and in disarray--I promise to begin the tidying and decluttering process

• I don't want to worry about money--I promise to make better financial decisions

• I want to have more energy--I promise to work on sleep hygiene and exercise

• I want to lose weight & feel comfortable in my body--I promise to eat better foods and avoid binge eating

• I want to like who I am--I promise to work on self-care and treating myself kindly.

• I want to be a good photographer--I promise to put in the time to excel.

• I want to be more creative--I promise to give myself opportunities to let my creativity bloom

• I want Sapphire Lucy Designs to be successful--I promise to work on developing the brand and building the label

• I want to be a public speaker--I promise to work on making this hidden dream become a reality

Here are my wants and promises, what I will work on in the coming weeks as I reset my life, is to flesh out the action steps that will allow me to fulfill the promises I made; identify the habits that I need to develop, and track my progress.

Let's get ready and go!